Monday, 17 April 2017

I'm Sorry, Little One

To my littlest boy, 

You know Mummy always feels guilty about everything, right? Well, this one keeps me awake sometimes. I want to explain something to you. When your big brother was born, Mummy and Daddy’s focus shifted. He became the centre of our entire world. Everything in the world revolved around him. This tiny precious, scrawny, beautiful little thing was suddenly the brightest, loudest, most glorious soul in the world. My days were spent properly indulging in him. I watched his every movement, I knew him inside out. I could distinguish between a bored cry, a hungry cry, a pained cry. I got to know all the little things about him like the glint he got (and still gets) in his eye when he was up to no good, the cute little squeaks he made when he was concentrating and the exact position he had to be held in to be rocked to sleep. When you arrived my sweet, he was still in the centre of my world but now so were you. And he was, at this point, a busy three year-old boy who wanted me to look after him and entertain him. He didn’t get knocked from this prime position, nor did he suddenly take second place; you both had to share it. So I hope you’ll forgive me but I never got to indulge in you in quite the same way. When pregnant with you, I wasn’t able to lie on the sofa for hours, watching TV, feeling every wiggle and kick. Nor when you arrived could I spend ages staring at you, trying to make you smile. It’s true, you’ve had to share the limelight but I want you to know that you shine just as brightly as your brother. It may have taken me longer to get to know you, I may still be learning, but I promise you, you’ll always be and always have been just as glorious as your brother.

Mummy x 

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  1. Beautiful post! It is the plight of younger siblings to never have the spotlight to themselves, but there's more than enough mummy love to go around. Your baby will know <3

  2. I think this sums up every mothers thoughts on second children, certainly it does mine. #HoneybeeLinky

  3. Ahh, this is so beautiful. I feel the same with my baby, George. He is the youngest at 6 months and Teddy is his older brother at 2.5yrs. It is so hard to share myself between them and am always worried about it. But then I remember that the very point is I care enough about each of them to worry about it so that's got to mean! Thanks for linking up with the #HoneybeeLinky, I hope you can join in again next week :) xxx

  4. I've felt this same thing. As they grow though, they are so lucky to have each other... even through the bickering and sibling rivalry. You did a good thing for them. #DreamTeam